so the last time you heard from me, I was in a bad place. I had a controlling, abusive boyfriend that mad me scared to talk to anyone. but that wasn't the only thing he did. he made it hard for me to know what love was. I have a definition for love, but he changed that for me, made me think that if this is what love is I don't want any part of it.
a new girl comes into my class... girl. looks like a boy, pants that are to big if she don't have a belt on they would fall off. undershirt, t-shirt, and never forget the jacket. skater shoes, Oo how I love skater shoes. no long hair for her. she want to be a guy, the way looks walks and talks. you wouldn't know she was a girl unless someone told you. we were friends from the moment we started talking, then more then friends "my mom cant know" I would do anything for love, even if that meant hiding it from my mom. fresh cuts tell me that it didn't, or couldn't work out. she moved and is out of my head now.
ive given up, on love.
thought that my life would then come and go with the stories my friends would leave behind of love, but I would have no happy ending stories of my own. "love will find you when you lest expect it to." I would hear that all the time on movies, or in quotes. but I never could understand what it meant, it must just be a saying that sounds good. that like me people would remember, but never understand the meaning of. I understand now that you will never understand something unless you yourself have see, or gone though it. I have a boyfriend now, we went to prom together. and he wants to be there when I tell his mom im pregnant, even though its not his. I will be a grate dad, along with the two godmothers, lol. I wish I had stopped looking for love a long time ago!
thank you babe, for everything.